Edward Underhill’s latest young adult novel, In Case You Read This, presents readers with a tender exploration of trans identity, first love, and the courage it takes to be authentically yourself. Following his previous works Always the Almost and This Day Changes Everything, Underhill continues to craft stories that center LGBTQ+ experiences with both sensitivity and genuine warmth.
The novel opens with two seventeen-year-old trans boys on opposite trajectories across the American Midwest. Arden Fisher is reluctantly leaving the comfort and acceptance of Los Angeles for the small town of Winifred, Michigan, while Gabe Wilson eagerly anticipates escaping the suffocating familiarity of Shelby, Illinois, for the promise of Pasadena, California. Their paths converge in the most unlikely of places: a Nebraska motel lobby, where a shared love of the fictional band Damaged Pixie Dream Boi sparks an immediate connection.
The Magic of “Nebraska Dimension”
What makes Underhill’s narrative particularly compelling is how he captures the electric intensity of that perfect moment when two people just click. The concept of “Nebraska Dimension”—borrowed from a DPDB song lyric—becomes a metaphor for those suspended moments of pure connection, free from the complications of real life. Arden and Gabe’s overnight conversation by the motel pool feels simultaneously intimate and universal, capturing the giddy excitement of finding someone who truly understands you.
The author’s writing shines brightest in these quiet, character-driven moments. Underhill has a gift for dialogue that feels authentically teenage without resorting to forced slang or artificial vernacular. When Arden and Gabe debate root beer preferences or discuss their favorite DPDB lyrics, their conversations pulse with the kind of genuine chemistry that makes readers root for their connection from the very first page.
Navigating Identity and Belonging
The Complexity of Trans Experience
One of the novel’s greatest strengths lies in its nuanced portrayal of trans identity. Neither Arden nor Gabe exists solely to educate readers about trans experiences, nor do their storylines center exclusively around their gender identity. Instead, Underhill weaves their transness naturally into their broader character development, showing how it intersects with their relationships, aspirations, and daily lives.
Arden’s struggle with visibility in small-town Michigan feels particularly authentic. The way people give him “the look”—that moment of recognition and confusion—captures the exhausting reality many trans people face in less progressive communities. Meanwhile, Gabe’s journey toward self-acceptance and his eventual decision to sing publicly becomes a powerful metaphor for claiming space and refusing to diminish himself for others’ comfort.
Family Dynamics and Found Family
“In Case You Read This” excels in its exploration of family relationships, particularly the complicated dynamics between Arden, his mother, and his grandmother. The tension between Arden’s mother’s desire for perfection and his grandmother’s practicality creates realistic family friction that goes beyond typical YA parent-teen conflict. Their road trip argument scene is uncomfortably real, capturing how family trauma can explode in the worst possible moments.
Equally compelling are the found family dynamics both boys discover. Arden’s integration into the Pretzel Queer Club (PQC) provides both humor and heart, while Gabe’s relationships with Vee and Liam at the coffee shop offer him the acceptance he’s been seeking. These friendships feel organic rather than manufactured, developing through shared interests and mutual support rather than dramatic plot devices.
The Power of Music and Connection
Damaged Pixie Dream Boi as Cultural Touchstone
Underhill’s creation of the fictional band Damaged Pixie Dream Boi serves multiple narrative purposes. The band becomes not just a shared interest between Arden and Gabe, but a symbol of queer community and artistic expression. The way fans connect through online forums, share theories about the band members’ relationships, and find meaning in song lyrics mirrors real-world fan culture with remarkable accuracy.
The climactic concert scene where DPDB reunites becomes a perfect metaphor for second chances and the power of community. When hundreds of fans sing “Curated Day” together under the Missouri stars, Underhill captures something essential about how art can create temporary spaces where we feel less alone in the world.
Areas Where the Story Stumbles
Pacing and Structure Concerns
While the novel’s dual perspective structure generally works well, there are moments where the pacing feels uneven. The middle section, particularly during the boys’ separation period, occasionally drags as we follow their daily lives without the electric connection that makes their interactions so compelling. Some readers may find the extensive social media interludes and group chat conversations, while realistic, somewhat disruptive to narrative flow.
The resolution also feels slightly rushed compared to the careful buildup. After months of separation and growing anticipation, their reunion at the concert resolves perhaps too neatly. While emotionally satisfying, it doesn’t quite match the complexity that Underhill builds throughout the rest of the novel.
Supporting Character Development
Though the supporting cast is generally well-drawn, some characters feel more like plot devices than fully realized individuals. Tess and Miguel, despite their crucial role in reuniting the protagonists, remain somewhat one-dimensional throughout. Similarly, while the PQC members have distinct personalities, they occasionally blur together in group scenes.
Literary Merit and Cultural Impact
Writing Style and Voice
Underhill demonstrates considerable skill in crafting distinct narrative voices for his dual protagonists. Arden’s tendency toward sarcasm and self-protection contrasts effectively with Gabe’s more introspective and hopeful perspective. The author successfully avoids the trap of making his characters sound identical despite their shared experiences as trans teens.
The novel’s exploration of social media and digital communication feels particularly contemporary and authentic. The way Arden and Gabe search for each other across different platforms, the role of fan communities in connecting them, and the impact of online spaces on their real-world relationships all reflect genuine aspects of teenage digital life.
Representation and Authenticity
As a trans author writing trans characters, Underhill brings an authenticity to the experience that resonates throughout the novel. The details—from binder discomfort in hot weather to the anxiety of using public restrooms—emerge naturally from character experience rather than feeling like inserted educational moments. This lived-in quality makes the representation feel genuine rather than performative.
Comparisons and Context
In Case You Read This sits comfortably alongside other contemporary LGBTQ+ YA romances like Becky Albertalli’s Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda and Mason Deaver’s I Wish You All the Best. However, Underhill’s focus on trans male protagonists and his exploration of long-distance connection sets it apart from its peers.
Final Verdict: A Love Letter to Connection and Community
Despite some structural imperfections, In Case You Read This succeeds as both a compelling romance and a thoughtful exploration of identity and belonging. Underhill has crafted a story that celebrates the messy reality of growing up trans while never losing sight of the joy and possibility that connection can bring.
The novel’s ultimate message—that perfection is less important than authenticity, and that real relationships require work beyond magical moments—feels both mature and hopeful. For LGBTQ+ teens seeking stories that reflect their experiences with nuance and dignity, and for any reader who appreciates well-crafted romance, In Case You Read This offers both emotional satisfaction and genuine insight into what it means to find your people and your place in the world.
In Case You Read This is a decent read for its strong character development, authentic dialogue, and meaningful representation, though minor pacing issues prevent it from reaching absolute perfection. It’s a worthy addition to the growing canon of thoughtful LGBTQ+ young adult literature.